This week I've been fighting with things I've fought with for years and I am sad to say that I have not always won...
I have also been attempting to get a hold of certain pastors and churches to ask if I can deliver a sermon on a Sunday morning. This afternoon (since I woke up at 1) especially I've been thinking about my 'worthiness' if that's a word...with certain things coming back to haunt me and losing certain battles I don't feel that I'm worthy to be preaching...
I know that God gives us grace when we sin. I have been reading Ephesians lately and there's a lot about Grace in that book....God gives us grace...I don't deserve it but He still gives us it...We were dead in our sins-made alive in Christ (by grace we have been saved) are some of the concepts explored by Paul...
I also think about in Romans when Paul talks about taking grace for granted...'may we sin all the more that grace may increase...may it never be.' I've heard that the Greek word there is such a strong one that some translations have used a four letter word... as in -'should we sin more so that grace may increase... 'hell no!!!'
A friend once gave me some advice about taking care of sin in my life... rather than concentrating on the sin and how bad it is and getting rid of it...concentrate on adding God and good things in to you life... Another friend once described this process using an illustration of two dogs a 'dark' dog and a 'light' dog...the more you feed the dogs the bigger they grow obviously- but the more you feed the 'light' dog the smaller the 'dark' dog gets...that illustration makes more sense to some people.
This week may have been a losing battle week but...
by the grace of God, and this alone, I press on
Can't say it hasn't been fun...
-luKe
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first of all, i think that you are worthy to preach but you have to find the right church, the pastor of that church will know if you should be speaking there, you should give him/her some time to pray about it first though, you have to be patient, but if you feel that God isn't leading you to continue to preach then its not for you, listen to your heart and pray about it...and second not all battles are to be won, God has a plan, even in right now it seems crappy, it could play a role in the long run, try to learn from it
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